Kid Stuff!!!

Started my morning with J Mayer. Ohhh, that man never fails to make my heart smiles. Did I mentioned that I wanted to make out with him? WAHAHA. And he will sing to me..

And if you want love,We'll make it 
Swimming a deep sea of blankets 
Take all your big plans and break 'em
This is bound to be a while...

Well I was sitting, waiting, wishing 
You believed in superstitions 
Then maybe you'd see the signs 

The Lord knows that this world is cruel 
I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool 
Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you 

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you 
Must I always be playing, playing your fool 

I sang your songs, I danced your dance 
I gave your friends all a chance 
But putting up with them 
Wasn't worth never having you 

Maybe you've been through this before 
But it's my first time so please ignore 
The next few lines cause they're directed at you 

I can't always be waiting, waiting on you 
I can't always be playing, playing your fool 

I keep playing your part 
But it's not my scene 
Want this plot to twist 
I've had enough mystery 
Keep building it up 
Then shooting me down 
But I'm already down 

Just wait a minute 
Just sitting, waiting 
Just wait a minute 
Just sitting, waiting 

Well, if I was in your position 
I'd put down all my ammunition 
I'd wonder why'd it taken me so long 

But Lord knows that I'm not you 
And if I was, I wouldn't be so cruel 
Cause waitin' on love aint so easy to do 

Must I always be waiting, waiting on you 
Must I always be playing, playing your fool 

No, I can't I always be waiting, waiting on you 
I can't always be playing, playing your fool

Woo, it is today, on Wednesday 7th January 2009. That I feel extremely lazy to do anything! even to cook.

 

I am looking at what i have to do, and nada. I am idle. Im sooo lazy, hopefully only for today. I need to create alot of documents :p :p

 

Lazyyy a

Jangan Khawatir, kalau jodoh toh yah nanti pasti ketemu lagi. Nggak lari kemana2

 

I feel that he is THE ONE

Just for the record, 2nd of January, Red Violin.

I will consider it as an adventure rather than a misfortune.

My night / morning spent with the funny bestman mentioned in my earlier entries. It was great. What can I say, there is a first thing to everything, and it was definitely the first time i was 90 percent giving to a man. As if you have known my life, I was never 100% as the sex before marriage thing always kicks me in the head, but this time it was different.

I was having my period, heavy flow, so we didn't do it. But still, I enjoyed my time with him.

He is going away, and I don't believe in such thing as fate now, but I will keep on living, and being myself. For now, I like him alot. Take care banana.

Love,

Em

[2:00am]

yay. its 2009!

paalam 2008. ang daming nangyaring namagitan sa ting dalawa may wish na natupad. (sa kin na lang yun) napakarami. kaya nga naiisip ko, maganda ang nakalipas na taon ko. baka eto na yung malas. parating na. jusko wag naman sana no. ituloy tuloy na natin. para masaya.

bye 2008.
hi 2009.

fish tayo.

If you had asked me this time last year what I expected for the following year, I can honestly tell you that the series of events that unfolded were the last series of events on a very looooong list of possibilities. Long story short, what a fucking year.

I went from being in a long-term, committed relationship to moving back home. Different circle of friends, different social activites. The only thing that remained the same was my career path.

I became a better person. I stopped lying to myself and to others. I took risks and met challenges head-first, stepping out of my comfort zone many times to do so. 

I have learnt that crying doesn't make you feel better, but it helps you sleep- like vodka.

So, if I've improved so much, how is it that I find myself alone on New Year's without someone to kiss? To hold me tight? Plenty of possibilities, yet none that I'd be as happy with as the impossibility.